I dun see it coming...
I dun see the will...
I dun see the energy...
I dun see the excitement...
I dun see the effort...
I dun the our future...

Regardless what he said about making the effort to focus on our future...I dun see he is working towards it..
The most he did was asking me if I wan to go for movie or shopping...
That is the most he can do?

The same old way to say he proof his effort...doing nothing much than just words and live like normal...

What is even sad is that saw the SMS from mum to him asking him to solve our prob and how could him leave the prob for so long and doing nothing, not even bringing me out to Pak tor..

It was the same day he SMS me to solve our prob

If mum didn't text him, would he put his effort to try to solve the prob?

Very sad...really heart broken...
Is this call love...

I tot love should be loving..

Why is love becoming so painful ...

How could he be so heartless?

How could he be so selfish to hold on to my life and do nothing but enjoy his own live?

I rather he tells me that he realize tat he dun love me as much as he tot and had never put me as 1st priority and would never be..
Let stab deep in my heart...at least I know the the ending...let me just suffer the pain for a short period..

Rather the pain prolong without any results by telling me that he will TRY to put me in his priority and want me to trust tat he want to build a home wit me BUT nothing happens ...
Such pain he puts me in is much more cruel than telling me tat he doesn't love me...

His heart only has his holiday and his work and all the fun things...


I want an answer..
I want a result...
I dun want to be hanging in this way...
I hv hang on for 4 years...I m tired...

I only want a loving and caring husband and happy home...