How do I tell u how hurt I m ? Do u not hv feelings for me or are you just being ignorant? I hide and cry to myself in toilet , in blanket and while driving. Very very sad n my heart is just so so in pain. U said u will never make me cry but u did it again and again ...

Why hold on my life when u don't care for it? Anything that happening is more important than me? I m always push to the last in queue. Never ever your TOP priority. Hv u ask yourself what is the most important thing in ur life? If u can only choose one, wat would it b?

Even ur cousin who recently past away also got better priority than I do. U miss his funeral, u will ask if ur relative talk bout u not attending n you make it back to hometown regardless how late u work to attend his7th day death anniversary. But me.... Ur future life partner ...never gets such attention. U told me ...told m parents last year tat u will wed me this yr on 11.11.11 and mid this year u push the plan to early next yr! And now it become a joke to even say it will happen next year!! How much do I stand in ur heart? Don't tell me I m ur top priority when u don't even spend a solid hours in a day with me!

I m an ordinary girl...only dream to hv a happy family and loving and caring life partners. I can't live with a partner who don't even care how u feel, who won't take care of the family...

I m getting more and more insecure....

Ur day to day action is killing ur reputation in my heart...

I know very well what is my TOP priority...work is never ending, friend is good to hv but when everyone has their own family they will go their way, hobby is own interest but do not hv soul n I can't live alone wit my hobby ...so I know very clear what I want in life ...what is lasting in my heart, who I want to grow old with...

Sad to say I don't think u see it the way I do...

I m getting more n more awake n trying to get back to reality...cant live in a dream thinking tat u will change. Everything come from ur HEART. If ur HEART do not hv me, please let me know. Don't hold to me n keep me aside. It's very selfish of u n u make me cry...