i emailed him twice on last weekend to express my feelings...
i hv run out of idea to express my feelings to him...basically i am speechless and helpless over things that happened to us.
he has taken things for granted and didnt appreciate my good intention..
i felt i hv lost myself...
i used to like to go shopping...
yeah it is true that i hardly could afford to buy/shop as i used to be...
but that doesn't mean that i do not like shopping.
i still wish to go shopping..but it never seems to be one of our weekend's activities.
So what have we been doing over the weekends? sleep, home, internet and gym...gym and home again....basically most are what he likes to do over weekends.
i hv entered to his lifestyle and i hv ost myself.

i love to explore for new and interesting food.
to be honest, if i am financially strong, i would go myself or with eunice or friends
unfortunately i am earning just enough for my daily meals..
so i tried to avoid meeting up my friends...
but i still wish he could bring me to explore new food.
it has been more than 1 year we are together and he has been promising me once, twice, and more..but no effort taken..
i started to miss myself and i want to go back to seek for myself...

After reading the emails, he did CARE for me more...
talk to me sweetly, hug me tight...

i like the most is when he hug me tight at night...
he would rest his face on my shoulder, nose and mouth facing my neck...
it's warm...