Can i have a break and have a peace of mind?
I am exhausted with work and life. Internally pressured with work. No case close - no income. No income - everything is a prob . I have to rely on ppl beside me for my living and entertainment.
I cant seek the solution at home coz i am old enough to take care of my financial and i should leave my parents no worries about me.

Sometimes the pressure comes when my dad feels insecure about our commitment to him. If we are late in giving allowance, he will start grumbling. Honestly my allowance is not even enough for for his 1 trip to genting! So what is the big deal. If i am late in giving him money for the car repairs, he again grumble. lately he is so temperamental in everything. He gets angry whn ppl disobey. Angry when ppl advise him. Angry whenever he wants. Haiz, I dare not put myself into trouble since i am already filled with all sorts of trouble. So, i always stay in room and avoid seeing him.

So i hv very high hope in my love relationship. I hope to be pampered and care all the time. I hope he can give me some security and peacefulness in my heart and soul. But sad to say, we always hit into arguments.

Who can tell me what i should look forward to? Seems all chapters in my life has no good ending.

I always ask when can this changed? I tried very hard to be positive at work, talk less at home to avoid mistake and give in most time in the arguments i hv with my bf. But nothing change, all still remains bad.

Luckily i have my sis - otherwise i am lifeless.