It never the last tears... It's so hard to make it the last tears...

Driving to work or back from work is the worst moment to be in...
Tears just rolling down automatically without any control...

I recall what happened yesterday...
When mom ask me early in the morning

Mum: I wan to ask u something
Me : don't ask
Mum: what happen to u and him?
Me : dun ask. I dowan to say anything...
Mum: whatever it is u need to solve the prob?
Me : why? Why? Why is it me that always tat the initiative to solve all our problems! He can leave the prob for 2-3 months..it shows that I am not important to him
Mum: what actually happen to u and him? U keep everything to urself
Me : dun ask anymore. I really dowan to say anything
Mum: u got to also find a solution. U keep everything to urself also u dun feel happy...

She just walk out the room. My tears uncontrollable rolling down, I know she is very sad to see me sad...
I am sorry to make u sad mom...

Yeah... I need a solution and I have been keeping everything to myself without sharing to anyone - not even my sis.

I can't take everything on my own anymore

I text him and ask him to move out when he is free.

he asked " u can't forgive me, don't u?

Later he said " I will move out after US trip"

Later he asked " how bout the SD 7 house?"

The only question I answer was the house. I told him that I can take it if he doesn't want it or we can sell off the house"

He asked " do v need to go to this stage"

Why keep asking me all these questions.. When u should been asking urself these and what hv u done or should do.

He will only start to look into our relationship after the US trip..after he enjoy his holiday and less busy with work only he will start doing something for our relationship? Don't u think it is very unfair? Don't u think he is so damn selfish ??

I won't let the house to tie me down. Won't even take the reason to get back to him due to the house. Is my whole life happiness... How would I agree to get back due to just the house.

I really wan to cry ...