A few days Of peaceful and quiet moments...
My life goes on...force to move on, can't stay on or keep waiting in this manner...
He is of to syney..
A few SMS...to ask me forget the past n forgive him...
Again a few words with such a BIG expectation...


I m not a machine or a robot tat tat by pressing a button, I can be wat u want...u can hurt my heart one day and another day request me to smile..
I hv feelings...
I hv been very very strong... To get up a few times after being hurt so many times...and also very silly to be hurt by same ppl in a same way...

Yea, true tat we hv happy moments together, mostly during trips...but tats not everything and not the main component of our life...
We hit into arguments again n again...same promises again and again...same believe again and again...I m exhausted...truly exhausted...

Will I move forward with him? I don't hv the courage anymore, don't hv the urge too...wat is worse is tat with merely no effort from him to cure this relationship...
I rather not get married than getting married to someone that do not give me the assurance tat he will tk care of me and our family...
Someone who only put promise in words from his mind and not action from his heart...

I dunno wat will I do but I don't feel like moving even a step forward!
2 months we survive in silent situation...2 months of no actions and only words and promises tat he will put me in top priority..
If v can survive in this months...what is love?


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